My World. My Life.

Man~
Forgotten which website did I visited to,
The website stated that
“IF YOU WANT TO MOVE TO AMERICA,
YOU HAVE TO LEARN THE WAY HOW DO THEY SPEAK"
It is a kind of HIPHOP lifestyle?
xD

Ewww,
I wish that I could step into any University that located in USA,
wherever also fine,
as long as it's a Uni that can let me finish my Uni life there.
Malaysia Uni is no longer my dream Uni anymore =P,
KeYin found me a Uni that provide nutrition major for me,
But I dont think that I could make it on this year.
Daddy wants me to study F6,
and I think that i should have a further discuss with my counselling teaching in school.
Maybe they could provide me a better choice?
Perhaps it will do.

F6?
The only pathway to get into Malaysia Uni.

From the starting,
I dont think that I will gain any opportunity to study oversea,
I dont even want to consider about it.
But now,
I know that it will happens if I tried!
Never Try Never Know!

Let me say about what do I want in my future life.
- Get into US's Uni
- Graduate with good result
- Study master
- Study PHD
- Get a better life
- Buy a condominium
- Travel ( Cruise is included!)

Daddy said that I will never go back once I study in US,
Yea,
But,
this is what I want.
Oh Yea,
Since you want me to study F6,
I will do it!
But you have to promise,
Send me to US if I got a good result!
I swear,
I will try my uppermost best to get good result during F6!
EWwwwww~

Friends,
Please do take note,
say no to HANGING OUT! 

You have been changed
or I have been spoiled?
You said,
I have been spoiled。
But,
do you know what is the actual answer?
After his appearance,
I am no longer your lovely niece.
You said you love me,
But you just proof it to me by caring him more than me.
What you said,
is just a kind of BULL SHIT!
Love?
I don't ever trust it anymore.

He had such quiet eyes,
She never realize,
There were two pools of lies,
layered with thinnest ice.

I am really hurt,
why?
inside your heart there has no any spaces left for me.
always Derick here and Derick there,
Do I still important for you?
I am really jealous about him,
How can he just snatch you away from me?
I don't even know who is him,
and i just be left behind.

Wanna go shopping?
ans: wait derick comes first.
Wanna do something?
ans: wait derick comes first.
I wanna buy shoes, my shoes are broken.
ans: wait derick comes first

Do I still important inside your heart?
Nope, I dont think so.
I've been left behind,
I am alone,
alone in this world,
Derick is everything,
and I am nothing.

I miss my daddy,
daddy is the only person would not left me behind in the darkness.
Daddy,
I miss you.
Daddy,
am alone.
Daddy,
could you try to bring me back,
I want to back to you.

I am happy,
found a song that can recall all my memories during the freestyle cruise.
I'm actually wonder,
do we able to meet on my next cruising?
how long it gonna take time?
10years?
It's too long.
So,
everything got to be end up RIGHT NOW.
Forget about the towel,
Forget about the Hello and Hi,
Forget about the Hug,
Forget about the SMILE.

I miss NCL cruise,
I miss the warmth they gave to their passengers,
Although the food in Garden Cafe are same EVERYDAY,
The cruise is still NICE.

Yea,
I'm really touch on the last 2 days.
All the staffs get onto the STARDUST's stage,
It's really look like a kind of farewell,
and my tears almost drop off because I knew that I am not going back the cruise for a long time.

Guess what,
I can just recall all my memories by songs played during the cruise,
I can just recall all my memories by having a view on those photo i taken.

I miss cruise,
I will be back,
one day.

I miss the world class entertainments in STARDUST,
I miss all the friendly smile given by the staffs.

Norwegian Gem,
YOU ROCK.

Sometimes, we just dont want to be a selfish person, so we share. But what u shared, may not appreciated. It is going to be a waste. =( We are just sharing, why you guys just critic this and critic that? I am trying to be kind, but... Since nobody appreciate it, then fine, I am not going to be kind anymore. I dont want to share anymore.

Since I was sharing with you, then you just get it quietly. If you really dont need it or you got a reliable teacher to provide you those reliable "prediction" then u can just ignore what I send you. I am just SHARING!

No more sharing start from today.

Again,
I am alone,
with books and computer.

I'm feeling lifeless.

RedBull,
the BEST beverage in this world.
Now,
I'm just like a BULL,
trying my uppermost best,
to study Sejarah.

In the middle of night,
I am not alone,
accompany by books,
and also a desktop.

I am burning midnight oil,
for what?
perhaps family,
perhaps myself.

As you all believe that I could do well,
but I dont think so.
I am just forcing myself,
to get what you all expect.

The word " add oil",
has become a STRESS.
Your belief,
is just what you have expect,
and what I have to do is,
get your EXPECT,
become expect-ED.

I have done nothing to this family,
STUDY HARD is the only mission in my life.
Result does mean everything.

When your parents told you,
just try your best,
my baby.
It means by,
you HAVE TO try your UPPERMOST best to achieve what they expect.

That's all for today.