My World. My Life.

There's a situation, 

Went back to Chung Hwa on today,
met a lot of teachers.
First,
Lee Ee Koon,
she asked us why were we here,
I told her that we dropped form 6,
she smile,
continued to talk.
After that,
She asked us the same thing again,
I replied with the same answer,
she shocked.
LOL...

Second,
Pn Lee,
concerned us,
Dont wanna continue form 6?
dont wanna sit for STPM?
How to get those application form?
and etc.

Third,
Pn Tin,
My Bio teacher.
She requested to see my result,
she said that I am actually good in History.
I told her that I usually failed my History,
and I didnt know why an A came out on my result slip,
its unexpected,
again,
she socked.
LOL.

then we went to counseling room,
to ask Pn Lee about the documents needed to submit to UTAR.
LOL,
she counseled us for awhile.
I knew that my choice is right,
and I knew that dream to US is far away for me.
I am actually giving up to step into US's uni.
No more dreaming,
Maybe UK?

After that we went to office to look for Mr khor to certify our documents,
but he is not in,
then we went to another room to look for Mr Yeoh,
Ah su knocked the door,
then we opened the door,
we saw Mr Khor was there too!
and then we closed the door and discussed about bla bla bla,
well,
they were having meeting,
with Mr song, Mr Khaw and whoever i dont ever remember.
then Mr yeoh was so nice,
he asked us what happened,
and we told him that actually we were just looking for him to certify our documents,
then he certified them for us,
Awww,
Mr Yeoh is always an awesomer...
Mr Khor was there,
actually he was just ignored 3 of us,
until i said bye bye to Mr Song,
Mr song asked me when am I leaving,
I told him,
NOW,
he laughed and then suddenly,
Mr Khor knew that we are giving up Form 6 and leaving to UTAR,
so he questioned us some answers and we answered him.
They asked,
Dont we feel like wasted?
I said,
better than struggle here for one more year.
They laughed,
But i dont think that my reply was funny and actually I do take it serious.

after that,
I drove like a boss to TESCO,
we went there for buying stamps and wang pos.

we bought stamps,
pasted stamps,
back home,
went out again,
was having lunch with my grandmother,
siblings,
relatives at zento,
then went to Gurney,
bought my brother a birthday present,
bought pretzel,
bought mochi,
back home,
eat,
shit,
bath,
did some house works,
bath again,
Astro garden,
astro on demand,
astro garden,
facebook,
felt lonely,
blogging,
and then now,
going back to astro garden,
after that,
read the summary about the drama,
facebook,
astro garden again,
bed.

life,
this is what life means to me.

Well,
i am actually going to work on the day after tomorrow.
Enjoy the last 2 days!

Yes, I tried that in TGV 1st Avenue. For me, I didnt like it very much as everyone said that how nice it is. I would rather bring my own bed to cinema for movie compared to beanbag. I paid RM15 to torture myself.

You'll have to peng lai peng ki because when you lay on the bean bag for a long time you will feel like jin jiat zuak.

For some moments, I really wished that I could sit straight for the movie. Oh yea, forgot to mention that I went there with Jin Hui, and the movie we watched is THE VOW. Well, The Vow is really an amazing movie, but I really dont like the bean bag. It really doesnt mean that the more you pay to the cinema the more you enjoy!

Well, back to the topic. I wished to sit straight but I worried that the person behind me will throw his or her popcorn on my head because I blocked his view. xD That's why I didnt do that. LOL!

Anyway, you guys should go to try it if you never experience it before. Try at least once in your life, you will know how to answer while others say on it.

Happy had been go to Alor Setar for 2 days. How does he feels right now? Sad, lonely or ... ? He never meet his parents, he has been brought here since he was born. Dogs have feeling too, how do you feel when you are brought to another family and grow up there? Bla, bla, bla.... But now, the family adopted him just want to give him away. Its too tired to take good care of him, he just simply loves to shit every where, run like very rush, and always knock this and knock that. I wonder does his head feels pain when he knocked here and knocked there. Even he doesnt feel the pain, I can still feel that on behalf of him.


Guess what? I went there and I was so lucky! I got to see the sport news reporter there! So, I non stop taking his photo! Because, I want to show off when I am back. Well, I forgot about this, and then my sis copy all the photo from my DSLR's memory card to my pen drive then suddenly I remember about it.


What you know? The last day in New York, My Erick Daddy brought me to the Italian Restaurant which located in little Italy. Then i ordered a seafood pasta.... Awww... Do you see the lobster? Well, it was a luxury lunch. This seafood pasta cost $30.00++.


22nd March, SPM's result release and yet Sook, Snoopy and I went to Guan Yin temple which located in Georgetown. Of course we went there for praying and yet I have some photo shooting there. But not satisfied with the photo's quality. Got to practice my photography skill harder... If not, I spent Rm3000 for my 600D is considering a waste.


After praying in Kuan Yin's temple we went to 1st Avenue. We went to Master Choo for our lunch then we go for RedBox. xD.

My NEW THEME on 2012! I finally found my own theme to make myself live stronger than before! The picture above is the fight between 2 cute Polar bears. I know, I am always as cute as Polar bear, so I use their picture for a brand new Me!

My theme for 2012 is FIGHT. FIGHT for my dream, FIGHT for my future.

Jino,  please read this again and again when you are upset. Fighting~~!! You rock yourself!

I am really feeling so bad after i got my result for SPM,
seriously,
this is not what i expect and i dont want it.
can i reject?

If times could go back once again,
I would really pay much effort on SPM.
Of course,
there is no longer any 2nd chance for me.

I disappointed myself,
I disappointed my teachers and family.
The moment my maths teacher ask me about result,
I almost drop my tears,
seriously...
I knew she must be so disappointed.
but myself too.

damn myself,
i really dont know what am actually nervous for while i was sitting for the maths paper.
I am so uselesssssssssss....
if i could really go back,
I will not nervous anymore!

Sorry,
sorry everyone who is disappoint you.
me,
myself also wasnt feeling great.

I really need to improve my ENGLISH!
damn stupid B for my ENGLISH!!

Soon, I am going back to Penang, Malaysia after my 2 and the half months vacations in United State. During this trip, I went to a lot places in United State! Better don't ask me where did I been to, I almost forgotten all. Let's recall where did I been to together with me. 

Man~
Forgotten which website did I visited to,
The website stated that
“IF YOU WANT TO MOVE TO AMERICA,
YOU HAVE TO LEARN THE WAY HOW DO THEY SPEAK"
It is a kind of HIPHOP lifestyle?
xD

Ewww,
I wish that I could step into any University that located in USA,
wherever also fine,
as long as it's a Uni that can let me finish my Uni life there.
Malaysia Uni is no longer my dream Uni anymore =P,
KeYin found me a Uni that provide nutrition major for me,
But I dont think that I could make it on this year.
Daddy wants me to study F6,
and I think that i should have a further discuss with my counselling teaching in school.
Maybe they could provide me a better choice?
Perhaps it will do.

F6?
The only pathway to get into Malaysia Uni.

From the starting,
I dont think that I will gain any opportunity to study oversea,
I dont even want to consider about it.
But now,
I know that it will happens if I tried!
Never Try Never Know!

Let me say about what do I want in my future life.
- Get into US's Uni
- Graduate with good result
- Study master
- Study PHD
- Get a better life
- Buy a condominium
- Travel ( Cruise is included!)

Daddy said that I will never go back once I study in US,
Yea,
But,
this is what I want.
Oh Yea,
Since you want me to study F6,
I will do it!
But you have to promise,
Send me to US if I got a good result!
I swear,
I will try my uppermost best to get good result during F6!
EWwwwww~

Friends,
Please do take note,
say no to HANGING OUT! 

You have been changed
or I have been spoiled?
You said,
I have been spoiled。
But,
do you know what is the actual answer?
After his appearance,
I am no longer your lovely niece.
You said you love me,
But you just proof it to me by caring him more than me.
What you said,
is just a kind of BULL SHIT!
Love?
I don't ever trust it anymore.

He had such quiet eyes,
She never realize,
There were two pools of lies,
layered with thinnest ice.

I am really hurt,
why?
inside your heart there has no any spaces left for me.
always Derick here and Derick there,
Do I still important for you?
I am really jealous about him,
How can he just snatch you away from me?
I don't even know who is him,
and i just be left behind.

Wanna go shopping?
ans: wait derick comes first.
Wanna do something?
ans: wait derick comes first.
I wanna buy shoes, my shoes are broken.
ans: wait derick comes first

Do I still important inside your heart?
Nope, I dont think so.
I've been left behind,
I am alone,
alone in this world,
Derick is everything,
and I am nothing.

I miss my daddy,
daddy is the only person would not left me behind in the darkness.
Daddy,
I miss you.
Daddy,
am alone.
Daddy,
could you try to bring me back,
I want to back to you.

I am happy,
found a song that can recall all my memories during the freestyle cruise.
I'm actually wonder,
do we able to meet on my next cruising?
how long it gonna take time?
10years?
It's too long.
So,
everything got to be end up RIGHT NOW.
Forget about the towel,
Forget about the Hello and Hi,
Forget about the Hug,
Forget about the SMILE.

I miss NCL cruise,
I miss the warmth they gave to their passengers,
Although the food in Garden Cafe are same EVERYDAY,
The cruise is still NICE.

Yea,
I'm really touch on the last 2 days.
All the staffs get onto the STARDUST's stage,
It's really look like a kind of farewell,
and my tears almost drop off because I knew that I am not going back the cruise for a long time.

Guess what,
I can just recall all my memories by songs played during the cruise,
I can just recall all my memories by having a view on those photo i taken.

I miss cruise,
I will be back,
one day.

I miss the world class entertainments in STARDUST,
I miss all the friendly smile given by the staffs.

Norwegian Gem,
YOU ROCK.

Sometimes, we just dont want to be a selfish person, so we share. But what u shared, may not appreciated. It is going to be a waste. =( We are just sharing, why you guys just critic this and critic that? I am trying to be kind, but... Since nobody appreciate it, then fine, I am not going to be kind anymore. I dont want to share anymore.

Since I was sharing with you, then you just get it quietly. If you really dont need it or you got a reliable teacher to provide you those reliable "prediction" then u can just ignore what I send you. I am just SHARING!

No more sharing start from today.

Again,
I am alone,
with books and computer.

I'm feeling lifeless.

RedBull,
the BEST beverage in this world.
Now,
I'm just like a BULL,
trying my uppermost best,
to study Sejarah.

In the middle of night,
I am not alone,
accompany by books,
and also a desktop.

I am burning midnight oil,
for what?
perhaps family,
perhaps myself.

As you all believe that I could do well,
but I dont think so.
I am just forcing myself,
to get what you all expect.

The word " add oil",
has become a STRESS.
Your belief,
is just what you have expect,
and what I have to do is,
get your EXPECT,
become expect-ED.

I have done nothing to this family,
STUDY HARD is the only mission in my life.
Result does mean everything.

When your parents told you,
just try your best,
my baby.
It means by,
you HAVE TO try your UPPERMOST best to achieve what they expect.

That's all for today.

I am going to graduate from SMJK Chung Hwa Confucian. I don't know how to express the feeling right now. The school I hate, has turned into the school I love. 5 years of secondary life in Chung Hwa Confucian, gave me a lot of memories with friends and teachers.

I am still remember that the first day I went into SMJK Chung Hwa Confucian, I dont even dare to go toilet alone. Because my brother told me that his friends met GHOST in the school toilet. Oh My God~ I am afraid of that thing... T^T

That time I thought that primary school is still the BEST, cause inside SRJK(C) Chung Hwa Confucian has no GHOST. Childish right?? xD But this is how a kid thinks!

Time flies, now i dare to go toilet alone, because there is no GHOST in this world. Anyway, this is not the main point of loving the school when I am going to graduate from this school. But, all my friends and teachers. Some teachers and friends may not like me, I know. But, still lot of people loving me, thats why I am still in love with this school.

Form 3, being a president of Leo Club. From a girl who does not dare to talk with public change into an active member in LEO, even Lion Richard also said so. =) The advantages of being part of LEO FAMILY. Well, this club gave me a lot of happiness but it does still gave me a lot of sadness. Deeply, disappointed with myself for the failure leadership. Will try to improve myself in the future to be a better and more qualify leader.

The first day I reached KL it was already 11pm. Uncle Kim Choon brought us to eat bak kut teh which is in dry. Although it may not taste like super nice, it was still tasting great! After having our supper, we went back to Uncle Kim Choon's house to sleep. Tomorrow will be the BIG day for aunty Michelle and I, both of us couldn't sleep tight, the feeling of nervous was sleeping with us for the whole night. Anyway, I dreamed about we were success for our visa application.

The next morning, uncle Kim Choon drove us to US embassy for the interview. While taking turn to get into the embassy, I was so nervous, feeling that my heart was going to pump out of my mouth. We went through the security check and walked for a short distance to the office, the feeling still wasn't great, I was still being nervous.

After getting our number, we sat in the visitor room. The embassy was so crowded. While waiting, I noticed that not much people be successful for the visa application, it made me feeling more nervous. Finally our number is announced and I thought finally its our turn to be interviewed. Unfortunately, when we went into the office, it was just handing up our appointment letter and other documents. How time flies, our number is then announced again, but it was still not the time for interview. We went to counter number 3 and has our finger print. The officer couldn't get my finger print on my right hand side, xD.

While waiting for our turn to be interviewed, I noticed a handsome officer in counter 8. xD, not bad looking, thumb up!

Time flies again and finally our number is announced. Now, we can go for interview. Its quite lucky, because we can interview by the young and handsome officer. "Number 66, counter 8". At the starting, aunt Michelle was the only one answering questions asked by the officer and I was just being quiet and standing beside my aunt. Finally, the officer asked me questions and I was don't know what was he asking because of his soft voice.

After that, I don't know what to answer anymore, my aunt quickly hand up my documents to the officer and the officer kept asking me a lot of questions and just ignored of my aunt. Finally, Our visa application is approved. Now, I can go to US! To the officer, I LOVE YOU! xD...

I joked with my family, I told them our visa application is success because that I am CUTE! xD. The officer ignored my aunt because she is no longer cute anymore. xP

Seriously, I dont really like that someone who is annoying. As well as you know what you want, then just stop for acting innocent. I never stop you from loving the one you love, but just stop talking about him beside me. I am not jealous that you have the one you LIKE and the one he is also LOVING you. But do you mind to care about my feeling?

REMEMBER (Jino's TIPS)
Dont give a person any hope if you didnt manage to together with him.

To the BOY,
stop acting that you are good enough. Who knows what you think inside your heart? I freaking hate the feeling right now...

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US consultant,
Can you pls let me to go US for my holiday... T^T... pls...

When I am tiring cause of burning midnight oil,
I swore that I will study during the night of Friday and the day of Saturday.
But then,
It is Sunday AFTERNOON!!!
I am still FACEBOOK-ing, and Blogging!!
Ish myself... !!! =((

http://www.facebook.com/pages/AhyOyO-pHotoGraphy/160289147334574

Here, I want to share a page with you guys. Aww, this page is awesome. Although the photo taking skill not as pro as professional ( PRO than me lerr), but some of the photos really awesome. I love it so much, so, owner of the page, i would like to promote your page to everyone FOC. =)

Yeah, soon i am going to be an OFFICIAL photographer for my Uncle Boy's wedding. It will be a great opportunities for myself to improve my photo taking skill. =)

heehehee... Bye Bye. Feel free to visit that page.. <3

To my love,
You are awesome,
Although you may not have an awesome look.

To my love,
You are awesome,
With your sunshine smile.

To my love,
You are sweet,
When you smile on me.

To my love,
You are nice,
When you show me your heart that fulfilled with love.

To my love,
You will always be the one I love.
I love you.